Back Again!

It has been a long time since I last blogged!  So much has been going on.  I thought of trying to capture it all here but it would be WAY to long!  So I am going to start with what I have been doing the last 4 almost 5 months.  My focus since the beginning of the year has been my health.  I had started doing P90X last year and was starting to see results but my diet was not as good as it could of been.  I stopped doing it because I started to get discouraged that I wasn't seeing the results I was hoping for.
 At the beginning of this year, I start another program of Beachbody's called Turbofire.  It is an intense cardio workout.  It reminds me of Jazzercise, except on steroids :-)  I have been having so much fun doing it! I have noticed that I have continued to get stronger, more cardiovascular endurance and have lost some inches.  What I haven't been losing is the weight.  In the past 4 months I have lost about 5 lbs.  I was surprised to say the least.  I have been eating well and exercising 6 days a week, so what is the problem?  I had recently gone for a physical and blood work and found out that I have a Vitamin D deficiency and my thyroid was not functioning properly.  I am not officially hypothyroid yet, but I am on the fast track to it.  At first when I found out, I was happy because I felt like I found the answer to my weight loss issue.  What happened next surprised me.  I started to find myself feeling very discouraged about the whole situation.  I have been busting my bottom for almost 5 months now and not much to show for it!?!  I really began to spiral down a hole I didn't want to go into. I have been feeling like this is all too much work.  What is the alternative though?  Not eat well, not exercise, not mentally take care of myself?  I already know what the consequences of that is and I don't like them. 
I read a quote on someones FB page that said, "There are 3 choices in life: give up, give in or give it all you got".  It is easy to give up or give in.   To give it all you got is hard, but I have to believe the payoff  will make it worth it.  Besides, I have 5 precious lives that count on me and they need to have a healthy mom and  a mom that they can look up too. 
I hope and one of my goals is to use this blog to keep me accountable.  I will also share news about the kids and the great progress, Michael and Matthew have been making in leaving with cerebral palsy and overcoming it.  I live with 2 sources of amazing inspiration.  I need to remember that and look beyond the 4 year old twin terrorists that they are right now ;-)  They are the hardest working kids I know!